Thursday, October 31, 2013

哇睇返啲相,原來我懷孕時塊面係有漲到,(我一直以為沒有!) 而家塊面真係瘦左!!
It seems everyone is dressing up their kids for Halloween... Um, I'm really not into this kind of things...(點算,節日冷感的我有了小孩後是否要有所反醒呢?)

Wednesday, October 30, 2013

小豬今日冇痾過屎!(昨日也只是痾左很少。)今日見佢谷屎但冇得出。慘慘豬。好擔心呀。唔通係啲 sweet potato?!(千祈唔好呀,sweet potato 又好味又便宜!)

Butter Warmer


兩、三年前買這個 butter warmer 時都掙扎了一番。一來有點貴;二來問自己真的有必要嗎?

(Butter warmer 是 .5 quart/liter;而通常最小的 saucepan 都有約 1.5 quart/liter。)

Butter warmer 並不只是用來 warm butter 的,我就較少這樣用法。(我是用 toaster oven warm butter 的,覺得更方便。)通常用來 warm maple syrup,煮果醬。因為當你要煮少量食物,就是連最小那款 saucepan 都嫌大。


最近這個 butter warmer 大派用場。用它來煮 baby food 真的是一流!因為我每次都煮很少,想像不到如何用 saucepan 煮!

咳咳,其實我想講的是,我因此而暗暗好開心。(!)最中意物有所值,沒有買錯!哈哈!

(又,這個是出自 All-Clad 的,是有點貴,但質素是真的好。重點是,個柄不會熱。)

Monday, October 28, 2013

呢排小豬晚晚都漏尿,可能因為腹睡。想換隻尿片試試,買了 Pampers Baby Dry,話有十二個鐘 overnight protection。打開條片,聞到那陣香味我已經想暈。半夜餵奶仍是那麼難頂!!早上看看,還不是一樣漏了好多尿!!!唉。成包尿片點算家陣。
放小豬在大床中央,想著把垃圾掉了。行了一半轉頭一看,天啊~~ 小豬已經翻了幾個身滾到床邊!!嚇死亞媽我啦~~

Sunday, October 27, 2013

開始餵 solid food,講真,真的是頭都大。我。當然。是。自己。煮啦。問題是,煮甚麼;餵幾餐;每次餵幾多;如何最有效率去煮又不浪費。。。真的是好大的學問。買了兩本書,厚到呢。我還有那些關於睡眠的書未看完呀。唉。
哇小豬似乎好喜歡食野。(得到媽媽真傳。) 今日開始餵兩餐。他食得好快呀。狂食狂食。

Saturday, October 26, 2013

餵小豬 solid food 一個星期,今日忽然開竅了,懂得怎樣吞,也食多左好多。開心。
昨晚男人試 drowsy put 小豬落 crib。結果小豬喊到拆天,個樣真的變成成個豬頭咁。唉。

Thursday, October 24, 2013

幸運是


前一排不小心把支 essence 掉落地,個 pump 掉了出來。好在按返上去後似乎沒事,仍用得。

(個樽的設計是,除了用個 pump 擠出來,是打不開的。)

戰戰競競用了一段日子,終於,如我所料,在一個昏暗的早上(!)個 pump 不再 work 了!!嗚~~ 還有 1/3 未用呀。雖然不是甚麼天價貨,但對於一個節儉的主婦來說(!),也是蠻心痛的。

接著我做了件很淆底(?)的事。

我叫豬小姐拿去 Chantecaille 的 counter 問問怎樣打開個樽!當然個樽是打不開的,(也算是個 design flaw?)我是奢望,他們可憐我,給我一個折買過樽新的。豬小姐碎碎念的,說以前識那班 sales 已經不在啦,更何況都好久沒買過野,不知人地會否理會她。不過她說即管試下囉。不會死的。

然後,意想不到的事情發生了。個 sales 居然換了支全新的給她!!OMG!!(因為個樽真的打不開,而個 sales 話認得豬小姐。)(不過我舊年在那裏都進貢了許多銀兩啦。不過不過仍好幸運啦!)

我就當是上天彌補我這段日子所要經歷的黑仔事件吧。嘿。

Wednesday, October 23, 2013

Mini Trip

昨日帶小豬一起去了 Napa 食午餐,都算是個 mini trip。

去時 nap 了近個鐘,很好。(當然是預好他的 nap time 出發啦。)

去到食食下奶就整鍋「傑野」給我們嘆下:超級漏屎。好在亞媽我早有預備,搞完一輪換好衣服,剛剛趕到預約的午餐時間。(SUV 的車尾換片真的好有用!值得買!)(!)

選了 Bottega,想去了幾次都訂不到位,今次 weekday 去所以輕易訂到。嗯,真的很不錯。


頭菜有炸魷魚和燒八爪魚。不好炸炸野的我狂吃個魷魚,好好味!八爪魚做到很「num」,我反而比較喜歡吃 rubbery 的哈哈,所以覺得這個一般。主菜我們都選了 pasta。好像真的好久沒吃過好味的pasta了。愛吃 fettucine 的我自然是選了它,很簡單但真的好吃。男人選了海膽龍蝦 pasta!那隻 pasta 好似蟲蟲呀。謝謝男人分一半海膽我吃。最後甜品是 fig apple tart 加 fig gelato,好好味呀!!(唉千萬別叫我寫食評!)

之後去了 Bouchon Bakery 買了一堆 pastry。有點感慨是,幾年前與男人去 Vegas,下榻 Venetian,裏面有間 Bouchon Bakery,每次出入都經過。那時見到隨便一件餅都要三個幾,就覺得好貴呀,唉連早餐都不捨得在那裏買。(!)現在想返,真的有點白癡吧。很窮嗎?所以呢,今次我是臉不改容地買了想吃的。 跟著就要回程了。只有兩個鐘 wake time 的小豬已過了他的 nap time。雖回程時才睡了半個鐘就醒了,但也好過沒有啦。

嗯,也算是沒有甚麼驚險的一個 trip 囉。

Sunday, October 20, 2013

寧靜晚餐


生後與男人的第一次單獨晚餐。我想,值得記下來吧。

男人兩個星期前就約定了個「sitter」。知道我這年來最挂念的是魚生,所以選了我們最愛去的壽司店。

定了六點的檯,但我們五點就出門口,所以還有點時間去逛了一會兒街。

去到我說,不用理會價錢想食就叫?好似很豪但有些極貴的還是不捨得。以為叫了許多,真的食到有點膩,張單一定很重手,但都比我們估計的少。好開心?!(!)

期間男人問我有沒有甚麼心事跟他說。我說你不會以為我不開心吧?他說不是嗎?我說你都傻的那樣的人與事值得我不開心嗎?嗯都怪我,跟他略提過後都不想再浪費時間在這些無聊事上所以也沒再跟他提過。

不想擾亂小豬的睡眠時間我們七點半就回到家了。雖然時間很短,但能夠輕鬆地吃餐飯,還可以談個心,又問下我那些無聊的問題,有幾個 moments 真的忘記了家中有隻小魔怪等著我們回去折磨我們,就夠了。

然後我們想,這樣的機會應該每個月都有一次吧?[發夢中]

Bubble Bath


Is there such thing as too much bubble bath?

Thanks for spoiling me.

Thursday, October 17, 2013

The Ordeal

Dearest my son, this is how mama got you into this world.

Two days passed the day of your supposed entry, mama went to see the doctor. She said you were still head high, if you weren't out in another 4 days, she will make you come out (i.e. induce you). Let's just say mama were worried. You were already measured big, and mama wanted to deliver you as natural as possible.

That day, not sure if you remembered, mama kept begging you to come out.

Being a good boy that you were (are you?!), that same night, you made your move!! Here's how it went down:

10:15pm (on 4/23) While relaxing on the sofa, mama felt a strong contraction. Never been so ecstatic about having pain!

mama was told, usually it takes a long time to be ready for delivery from the first contraction. So mama continued to lounge on the sofa.

10:45pm Contraction had already become 5 minutes apart. So fast!! Because the doctor told mama, under two conditions I will need to go to the hospital: 1, water broke. 2, contractions were 5 minutes or less apart; each lasts at least 45 seconds; and continued for an hour.  (which is called the 5-1-1.)

mama were quite excited! Wow you were really couldn't wait to come out!

So then mama proceeded to take shower, getting ready to go to the hospital. (Though kept thinking, if the labor went fast, really too good to be true!)

12:15am It had been 1.5 hours, I called the doctor, she said given that you were overdue, I should go to the hospital. Though she murmured you were head high that morning.

After drank a bowl of soup, papa and mama ready to go to the hospital.

12:50am The hospital was very quiet, we were the only ones there. The nurse checked mama out, umm... disappointedly it was only 1cm open!! You know, they won't admit mama unless it's at least 4cm open. The nurse asked what was the pain level (1-10), worried to be send home, mama said it was 6-7, when, honestly it was like a 5.

The nurse monitored your heart beat for half an hour, then told us to walk around for an hour.

2:30am We came back from the walk, during which the contraction had become stronger, now really became like 6-7. But still quite bearable. The nurse checked mama out again, still 1cm!!! Ohhh how disappointing that was!!! The nurse said, she will monitor your heart beat for another half hour, and after that, very likely we will be send home.

The contraction continued to escalate while your heart beat was being monitored.

2:50am My water broke!!! A huge gust of water rushed out and didn't seem to able to stop. (Along with some of your poo!) By this point, my pain level had suddenly sky rocketed to 100 fold!! (Really!) There was maybe only a minute of resting time between each contraction; and I started to shiver uncontrollably.

Yes, now they must admit mama. What a relief, we really didn't want to go home.

(From this point on, everything was a bit a blur to me. I asked papa to fill me in on some stuff afterward, this is the best I can remember.)

3:00am Before they moved mama to the delivery room, they needed to insert an IV line into mama's arm. After several failed attempts, I could tell the nurse was getting nervous... all the while I was screaming in pain and she was adding more to both of my arms! The nurse seemed to be relieved when she learned that another nurse from the delivery room will come...

Nurse Joan came, she looked experienced and well respected, mama was relieved too because I didn't want to be poke so many times on top of my contraction pain!!

But then, alas, even nurse Joan couldn't find a vein she could insert the IV line!! I couldn't help but asked, "What's going on?" She frowned to me, "you know you are ruining my reputation here right?" ... Well she too gave up, maybe seeing me in great pain, she didn't want to poke me too many times, she decided to insert the IV into the mid-section (where the arm bends) of my arm... little did I know then how much more pain I would suffer from that insert for the next 40 plus hours!! Because with the IV line there, I couldn't bend my arm at all (the machine will beep), actually couldn't even move!! From then on, it was like I lost one arm...

4:30am Nurse Joan put me on a wheelchair that covered with towels to absorb my nonstop leaking water, and rushed me to the delivery room on the second floor. She was running while pushing me!! By this time I was pretty much half-conscious, but in my mind so glad it was early in the morning so no one was there to see how awful I must had looked.

Once we were up in the delivery room, nurse Joan contacted the anesthetist to come, while she was setting up all the machines and monitors. 

5:00am The anesthetist came. After he had setup everything, nurse Joan had me sat up by the bed side, and she tightly hugged my entire upper body because I needed to be absolute still (from all the shivering) for the anesthetist to inject the epidural. 

It took a while to administer the epidural. After I don't know how long, maybe 10-15 minutes, suddenly I felt a huge pressure coming through my bottom!! I was horrified, "Something is coming out... I think my baby is coming out!!! I can feel his head~~~" I wanted to move, to get off the sitting position so I don't squash your little head... but nurse Joan held me tight and won't let me move... thank God the anesthetist said "almost done!" 

As soon as the anesthetist was done, I knew something had come out of me so I frantically roll myself over and screamed~~~ "What the heck was that?!?!"

Of course it wasn't your head. With my big tummy I couldn't see, nurse Joan told me it was a water sag. I was like "!!!!!!" I asked her if it was common. She said no, she rarely see a water sag as big as that. She also said I had enormous amount of water which was not common too. 
Papa took a look of the water sag and showed me a disgusted face. I told him to take a picture of it. At first he refused and said I shouldn't look, but I begged him to let me see it... yes it was weird...

I heard that when the needle went in it would be painful. Well, with the contraction, I barely can feel the needle going in.

5:30am After the epidural went in, the pain slowly went away. Nurse Joan said I should rest and get some sleep. I wish I could. My right arm was attached to a blood pressure machine, which it automatically checked my blood pressure every 15 minutes. How can I sleep with every 15 minutes of interruption? On top of that, the other machine kept beeping whenever I bended my arm... heck even I swore I didn't even move it still beeped!! Every time it beeped, we had to call the nurse in to make it stop. We kept apologizing; and the nurse did the same. Needless to say it was super annoying.

7:00am Dr Yee came in to to check on me. I was a bit surprised she came so early. She told me it was about 5-6 cm opened. I thought we had good progress.

9:00am Dr Yee came in again. Umm... this time no progress at all, same as two hours ago. She told the nurse to give me some Pitocin to help the process. I was reluctant to take Pitocin, but it didn't seem like there's any other way.

At some point, nurse Joan had ended her shift, and nurse Trisha came to help mama.

All the while, the machine kept beeping at my left arm. Nurse Trisha also told mama if the pain escalated, I could push a button to burst the pain killer dose. I didn't want to but I did push it couple of times.

11:00am Dr Yee came to check on mama again. I begged for good news, but there was none. Still 5-6 cm opened only.

Then Dr Yee broke the news: she recommended to have a c-section to get you out.

Needless to say mama was shocked and refused to accept this was happening. Dr Yee explained, normally she would have recommended c-section two hours ago, but knowing mama so she tried the Pitocin first. But since no progress in two hours, plus your head was still high, also the fact you were overdue, I should really go with c-section.

I wished she had told me two hours ago there was a possibility of a c-section. At that point I just couldn't accept I needed one. I begged the doctor to let me (and you) to try a little longer. She consented because both mama and you were under good conditions, she had the nurse to add more Pitocin and let us try another two hours.

During this time, mama and papa talked, though there weren't much to discuss. As much as mama wanted to bring you to this world naturally, we need to do what's best for you in the given situation. If we tried too long you would get stressed out, which was not good either. We really didn't have much a choice if nothing progress in the the next two hours, but mama conceded that c-section would be the only thing we could do.

1:15pm Dr Yee was not back. I called the nurse and was concerned. I was still hoping for good news. The nurse said Dr Yee was running a little late but she can check my cervix.

No progress.

I could wait for Dr Yee to come to check again before making my decision, or the nurse could start preparing for the surgery now, and everything would be ready when the doctor arrived. 

I told her to go ahead to prepare the surgery.

Dr Yee arrived shortly after. She seemed she knew there was no progress but she gave me another check anyway. 

Same. So surgery it was.

2:00pm Mama was already in the operating room.

By this time mama hadn't slept more than 30 hours!! I was so tired I hardly could keep my eyes open.

2:15pm They started to operate on mama.

They allowed papa to come watch, but papa couldn't really see anything; they had a big blanket up from my chest. Mama was so tired couldn't even open eyes to see papa, but I know papa was next to me.

The last thing I remember was the doctor was telling papa when they plan to cut me open, and I yelled, "Please don't tell me when!!" Even though mama couldn't feel the pain but I still could feel the doctor's hands on me!

2:50pm Papa was holding you next to me. I slept through the whole thing! But I was still so sleepy that I barely opened my eyes to give you one peak. I wanted to look at you longer but my eye lids were so heavy.

You weighted 8lb 1oz and 20 inches long. Such a big baby. The doctor also told mama that your head was at an angle to the birth canal, so there was no way you could have come through!! But you really tried cause your head had turned into cone-like. So glad we didn't delay any further to bring you out.

They had to bring you to the nursery to do checkups, and papa went with you.

I was half sleep half wake while they closed me up. I could hear the doctors talking; I heard some suction noises. I wanted to keep myself awake to know what's going on, but I was too tired.

3:30pm The operation was done. The anesthetist, who stood next to me the whole time, asked me how I felt. Immediately I felt pain on the right side of my abdomen; I was a bit scared and told the anesthetist. But he said it was normal. (What?!?!) I also felt nauseous, a bit disoriented at the time.

4:00pm I was moved to the recovery room. They needed to make sure mama was doing okay after the surgery before moving me to the postpartum room. 

(Later my attending nurse told me, at the recovery room nurse to patient is one-to-one; but in the postpartum room is four-to-one, so I should stay as long as I needed.)

Upon arriving I felt so nauseous I began to vomit. But since I didn't eat anything almost 24 hours, only some water came out.

The IV line continued to cause the machine kept beeping. My blood pressure was too low and it needed to go back up before I could leave the recovery room. The nurse told me to keep breathe in and out strongly but I was so tired I kept forgetting. And when my blood pressure dropped to an undesired level, another machine would beep. Sigh.

The nurse asked me if I want to meet you here or wait till I go to the postpartum room. Of course as soon as possible, I said. 

5:30pm Papa brought you in. Ohh baby you didn't look like a newborn at all, you were huge. How did you fit into mama's tiny body? 

We had some skin to skin time. While you laid next to mama, you naturally started to search for milk!! Wow that was amazing!!

6:30pm Mama's blood pressure finally went back to the normal level, and was moved to the postpartum room.

。 。 。

From this point on, I can't really remember all the details or timeline. 

Upon arrived, the nurse wrapped my legs with "stimulate mats," (haha I don't know the medical term!) it would stimulate (shake) my legs every 20 minutes so the blood wouldn't clog. (Which means can't sleep with that thing on.)

I started to breastfeed you every two hours. My left arm continued to cause problems, I couldn't even use it. With my c-sec wound, I only could lay you in bed and use my right arm to hold you. 

The next morning, the nurse couldn't stand the beeping from my arm and decided to reinsert my IV line. Guess where she put it? On top of my hand! It was painful but at least I could finally move my left arm!! 

。 。 。

I guess I can go on and on, such as you had a mur mur in your heart; (thank God that turned out nothing!) you had jaundice; my milk didn't come in till we went home (on the 5th day); my blood pressure was low; my legs were all swollen; and my arms... they were bruised for couple of weeks...

But we made it. The important thing is, baby you are healthy. 

This was just the beginning. So much have changed after you came into mama's life. Mama continues to be sleep deprived for months, but mama loves you so much, I just want to give you the best.

Love,
Mama




PS: It took me 6 months to write this!! Haha.

Wednesday, October 16, 2013

Boon Spoons


After an intensive search (!) for baby's first spoon, I decided on these.

I was a little worried when I ordered them online cuz I had never seen the real thing. But they turned out better than the pic showed online.

I really like them!!

Change Friends


見到這個,會心一笑。
喜歡十月的SF,是一年最好天氣的月份吧?幾乎日日都和暖、陽光普照。我也方便日日帶小豬出去走一走。(又,真的喜歡我們的 stroller。沒有買錯哩!)
為左慳$10買了件粉紅(加褐色)點的 sleep sack 俾小豬。(!)(另有綠色和藍色但沒減價。)睇相覺得,都唔係好粉紅唧。問過幾人意見都說OK啦。(!)誰知收到後,嗯, 好粉紅咁囉。點先。

Tuesday, October 15, 2013

「奇跡」呢樣野,只會發生一次才叫奇跡吧。

Monday, October 14, 2013

小豬開始中意 dump 野。慘。
昨晚把小豬 sleep on tummy,然後小小的奇蹟發生了:他只是肚餓醒了一次!(之前三、四次!)我想,他是喜歡 sleep on tummy 吧!雖然有點擔心,但唯有試讓他那樣睡囉。
昨晚有連續五個鐘不用起身,也沒醒過。(有試過小豬沒有醒但我就不停醒!)生左後未試過吧?!

Saturday, October 12, 2013

換了乾淨的床單。放小豬上去,馬上嘔。咁多謝啊亞仔。

Friday, October 11, 2013

我發覺原來BB仔真的好容易吸引人的!我每次同小豬出去都會被人撩。亞媽我固然是自閉驚驚,個仔都唔好得去邊!

Tuesday, October 8, 2013

我而家成日用 milk 既手語來氹小豬食多啲奶。好多時都落答。好豬頭哦!

Monday, October 7, 2013

今日的體重應該係過去五年的新低!!
其實小豬都幾乖的,又好 sweet。只不過唔識自己睡之嘛。(!)但我相信,只要給他時間,他會學懂的!
小豬現在識得嗲人。好冧!

Saturday, October 5, 2013

雖然小豬有點難搞,但他真的是個很搞笑和很開心的BB。每日對住他當然有累的時候,但其實充滿歡樂的。有甚麼不開心的事,望著他就會忘記了。

Wednesday, October 2, 2013

When you think things couldn't get any worse. We had another record breaking night. I thought we went thru hell before, but compare to now it was just meh. :-/
抱住小豬睡了個半鐘一放下床仔還是哭了。平時會即刻抱起以防他哭得太厲害以至醒了。今晚忽然不想即刻抱起,看看他怎樣。結果呢,狂哭不已。抱起後還哭了一個鐘。當然完全醒曬。再過多一個鐘才氹返他睡。累呀。唉,試試試,試乜鬼呀。搞到大家冇得睡。慘。

Tuesday, October 1, 2013

今日有人問我個baby係咪唯一既一個。我答,係,一個就夠。然後那人說,「 Ahhh you're so funny!」下?我哪裡搞笑呢又?